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Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:11 pm | |
| If Only They Knew
I wish people didn’t care so much I wish they asked about me as such Sometimes it feels like they forget That mom is not the only one caught in a net
I wish they knew the real deal That in time, mom will be the only one healed I sit and think about what’s going on But I can’t seem to figure out where it went so wrong
They think they understand about it But they don’t know that if they tried to stand they would have to sit It feels like it’s all coming down on me Soon I’ll be sitting on my knees
I won’t be able to breathe Though my chest will heave If only they knew That I’m in it too | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:11 pm | |
| At This Point
You had it good at one point. You had my world at one point. You had my heart at one point. And at one point you had it all, And you threw it all away…
And at one point you realized that was a mistake; And at one point you came crawling back my way, And all I had to say was…
I’ll give you one more chance to prove to me you’re real, And one more chance to prove that you love me, But just one more chance so don’t throw this one away…
Cause you ain’t getting no more chances. You ain’t making no more deals, Cause I ain’t crying over you. I ain’t shedding one more tear.
So take this chance and show me what you’re made of. Take this chance and learn to be a man. Take this chance because it’s the last one you’re getting. Baby, take this chance. Take this chance, Because at one point I told you I loved you, And at one point you told me that you loved me too. And at this point I still really love you. And at this point I wanna know you love me too. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:12 pm | |
| On This Night
On this night, Its nights like this, when you’re this drunk That I think you’re just a punk A punk just like all the other guys That hurts you and tells you nothing, but lies That night you walked up to me and couldn’t even stand straight You gave me this look full of hate It seemed to me that you didn’t even want me there And you looked away like you didn’t even care And on this night All you wanted to do was fight You even accused me of not loving you After six years, I would’ve expected that you knew For you I’ve cried night and day But all I can do is sit here and pray Pray that I’m the only girl you see And pray that you’ll still love me I pray for a little miracle or three For you to be the person you used to be Everybody tells me that it will never happen, that its time to let go But there’s something that they don’t know Every time I look into your eyes, I see That person you used to be I see that person who used to care And that person who was always there The Rowan who was not afraid to let the world see That he would give the world for me The Rowan who never let anyone get in between us Who would never care to look at another girl, even when I looked like a mess So I’m begging you, please answer my prayers Show me the person you buried underneath all those layers Love me the way you used to Because you’re pushing me and I’m starting to let go | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:13 pm | |
| Let You Go
Because sometimes I miss you so much it hurts, And the sad thing is you don’t see what its worth. Because sometimes I cry so hard I want to break, The reason I’m lost and can’t escape. Because of you I can’t look at myself the same, I wish I never met you, or ever heard your name. Sometimes I picture us in my head and it cuts so deep it kills, And the worst thing of it all that I can’t forget, The lust, the passion, the chills. I realize we grew apart, and I realize we died, I wanted to believe we’d last forever, I wanted to believe you tried. I get these feelings deep, deep down, That make me cry till you turn around, And when you do you always see, The love let down I’ll always be. You smile at me and I don’t know why, And when you do I want to die. I pray for you, that you’ll go far, But letting you go is the infinity of hard. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:16 pm | |
| Open Doors
A stroke on my hand. A kiss on my head. You awoke the heart, That I thought was dead.
Holding me close, And not letting go. I’m so afraid, That it’s all just a show. You’re with her, And that’s just fine. But you know in my heart, You wish you were mine.
You hold me in place, Close to your heart. Because that’s where you want me, And that’s where it starts.
I’m losing my grip, Won the control of this feeling. You are fixing a girl, That just started healing.
You’re worth the pain, And worth the hurt. You’re worth the broken heart, Because I finally see effort.
Is it over with her? Is it time for me? Why don’t you answer? Just help me see.
The love we share, Is one of a kind. It can’t be duplicated, And it gets better over time.
Just don’t let go, Like you did before. We’ll walk hand in hand, Through these open doors. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:16 pm | |
| Heaven
To wake up where you are Would be a most tremendous gift To wake up next to you Would send my heart in fits
To wake up to your face With your breath hot against my skin To smell your scent on me Would be like breathing heaven in
Like heaven in the sky above You’re just so far away To stay forever in this heaven I would give my life away
Wake me up and hold my hand And kiss me on the lips Take me into heaven please A no-return one-way trip | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Sun Jun 21, 2009 10:17 pm | |
| A Perfect Night
November skies painted dark blue Like an angelic midnight feast Through hidden trees, a soft breeze flew From the core of the night is a lullaby released
Desire is a shadow compared to our embrace This melody of wonder, playing in my heart All stars reunited in unending grace Bound to us, drawing a piece of art
I lost myself in the sweetness of your voice It feels like dancing between the candles of moonlight If time and space could obey my choice I would live forever in this perfect night | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Mon Jun 22, 2009 1:52 am | |
| Hold On
I love you now So hold me close Don’t let the darkness in
Hold on to the light And we’ll make our dreams Come true
Don’t question the outcome Just hold out for the ride Don’t jump to conclusions Whenever we fight
Baby, don’t let go Of the beauty That’s within
Look forward to tomorrow And let the sunshine shine in | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Mon Jun 22, 2009 1:53 am | |
| If One To Say
How do I put it in one simple way To describe how I love you if only to say That love is a gift sent down from above With empowering moments and things unspoken of With too many small words that can’t describe the real meaning When after all love is just a simply a feeling | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Mon Jun 22, 2009 1:53 am | |
| Little Brother
Superstition and reality, They force me to write these words. Subtle rhymes fall in time, Aloud they go unheard.
Dear Brother, I want to write this one for you. Though I’m not entirely sure why. I’m stupid and I’ll never be good enough, Not for your pale blue eyes.
Brother, don’t you know you’re impressive? Musicality flowing through your veins. Brother, did you know your words kill me… It’s too much to breathe in this pain.
Little brother, I swear to you… You matter more than you know. One of these days, you’re gonna be a big star… And I’ll always be at you show.
Though you don’t see me… not today, Tomorrow rests so near. Joey… you’ll never read these words, But they’re my “I love you” for you, dear. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:36 am | |
| Do It All Again
Push me and I’ll fall to the ground, Stab me and the blade will run through. But the most painful thing I’ve ever done, Was tearing myself apart helping you.
Nobody’s ever perfect in this world, To live life you must experience pain. I pushed myself to the brink of insanity, But in the end, helping you presented no gain.
Being there and caring didn’t mean much to you, Perhaps this is my limit as your friend. Mere words proved hopeless in saving you, Even though you really broke my heart… I’d do it all again. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:44 am | |
| My Family
I love my family I hate my family I like spending time with my family I want to get away from my family (far far away) My family is there for me They care for me They know me They make my happy and sad Sappy, I guess They’re aware of me Not who other people think I am Just me And my family | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:45 am | |
| Daddy’s Little Girl
Daddy’s little girl She is his whole world She turns it upside down And all the way around
Daddy’s little girl She has him wrapped around her finger She knows he won’t let her get tangled
Daddy’s little girl She is just like him but without all the same parts They are tied together by their hearts
Daddy’s little girl She is not so little anymore He knows it is time to let her soar Time to let her be all that and more
But she will always be daddy’s little girl | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:46 am | |
| Memories
Thinking back, I can’t help but remember I remember that we once said forever We told each other we would always make it And that we were the perfect pair together
I remember the nights staring at you while you slept Kissing your forehead to show you I cared Holding each other so tight, but it never seemed close enough There are so many memories that we shared
I remember the long nights of walking for hours Talking about everything that happened during the day Telling each other how perfect they were And how our love would never fade away
I remember the cuddling for hours on the couch Staring into your beautiful eyes A smile would come across your face And we promised that we would never tell lies
I remember the lonely nights when I didn’t have you Instead I had the blanket that you gave to me I could always smell your perfume on it And reminded me of how perfect marriage would be
I remember when you said that I was your dream girl I constantly told you that you would be the perfect dad You couldn’t wait until we had a family together Now looking back, it only makes me sad
What happened to this love that used to be so strong? This love that we shared that seemed so right? We always worked through everything And we would never get off the phone when we were in a fight
We used to say that we would never let that song happen to us But I guess that song really did come true We have both chosen different paths from each other And I’ve lost all the love that I used to have for you
I sit here just with memories of what used to be And I’m happy with the life that I am now living I no longer have to feel like crap about myself And I no longer have to constantly be giving
I always gave so much of myself to you And you never appreciated any of it You always made me feel worse about myself So I knew that “we” was something I had to quit
I do not care about you anymore I no longer even call you a friend I’m finally happy with myself And I’m glad that we will never talk again
So goodbye my ex-lover Goodbye to you who opened my eyes Opened my eyes that made me realize I deserve better And I no longer have to listen to any of your lies | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:46 am | |
| Suicide Solution
I feel the knife Like the first time breathing in Told myself not to do it My blood was boiling deep within
Tell my mother, tell my father I’ve done the best I can This is my life I hope they understand
Starting to fade As the second stage hits I fall to the ground shaking The pain seemed like the perfect fit
My heartbeat felt like an earthquake Crawling towards the door I can feel my life coming to an end My mom found me on the floor
Trapped in my thoughts I know you’ve waited so long Chain me free I thought nothing could ever go wrong
Another day in deep grey My life shadowed by a lonely tear Please wake me up I need to get my head clear
I wake up gasping for air Like the first time breathing in Told myself to begin a new life What a life this has been
Ready for a new dream to begin Suicide isn’t always the right solution Burn down these walls I’m ready for my retribution | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:47 am | |
| ((Sorry this may be a repeat, I can't remember)) Don’t Let Me Fall
The key to love is friendship and trust. A lot of faith in you got me a long way. Take care of me; don’t make me leave you; it would hurt us both. I’m opening up my heart for you, Rowan.
Hold my heart carefully; don’t let it drop. Help us stay together; become a part of me. Don’t ever let me go. And I’ll do the same for you.
Hold me in your arms when I need you. And I’ll lend you my shoulder when your head hurts. I’ll hold you in the most special place in my heart, As long as you hold me tight, and don’t let me fall. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:47 am | |
| Unprotected and Unwanted
Girl and guy, hand in hand, Walking along, footprints in dusty brown sand. Gaze at each other, eyes aglow, Murmur three fateful words, Then let their innocence go.
Only 18 years, since they were born themselves, Out of control, ignore the warning bells. Six weeks later, girl all alone. Boyfriend left, words ringing in her head, his nasty tone.
She’s late, so takes the test. Breaks down in tears when the sign is yes. All her dreams shattered, life left in pieces, His sweet words, nothing more than just teases.
Can’t tell her parents, for fear of their fists, Can’t afford abortion, takes the pain out on her wrists. Wishing to die, hoping to leave, Doesn’t want this baby, only a peeve.
Lives in denial, until evidence apparent, At home she gets hit, in public people stare, Living in a dark black hole, no one cares.
She’s left with nothing but bruises, And her baby’s growth cruises, Her only friends being alcohol and drugs, No thought of consequences, just craving the buzz.
Water breaks one day at school, Looks like she wet her pants, peers so cruel. Ambulance saves her from that fiery Hell, But when baby arrives, all is not well. Alcohol and drugs finally took their toll. Baby’s brain damaged, deep within the skull. Deformed head, arms and legs, New mom breaks down crying, to God she begs.
But it’s too late, the past can’t return. To go back and say no, is the girl’s only yearn. The stress is too much, the pain too hard, To her abusive parents, she leaves a little card.
Takes a gun to her head, pulls the trigger, Only way out, she has no more vigor. Falls cold on the ground, baby in arms, Leaving to heaven, rid of her harms. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:54 am | |
| A Letter To My Baby (A Child)
Dear my precious baby,
Today I finally saw you, It was nothing I’ve ever seen. Today I witnessed a miracle, An angel came from me.
Ten fingers, ten toes; A beautiful smile; A cute nose.
Your baby smell I could wait for, To see you smile as we walk out the hospital doors, To hold in my arms and watch you sleep through the night.
To wake up every morning And see you there, To know you’re finally home now With not a moment to spare.
To see that bond we share, Like mother and child do. To kiss you every chance I get And always be here for you.
To see you crawl And watch you play; To see you laugh As you make my day.
As of right now I’ll cherish the memories That I am having with you. For always and forever, You’re my greatest blessing and I love you. | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:54 am | |
| This Christmas
Christmas time is here is here again And everything is spinning around The memories are haunting me Like a film playing without sound.
I remember the way you used to smile And whisper “I love you” Before I got on my bus for break I’d say the same thing too.
You’d call the night before Christmas When you were all alone Then you’d talk to me for hours Keeping me on the phone.
You’d tell me the things no one else knew Your deepest thoughts and darkest dreams You weren’t the guy everyone thought you were You were ripping apart at the seams.
You were never perfect And you weren’t always right But I loved who you were back then And I miss seeing you in that light.
The first year after you went away My Christmas was bright, but dark But I put on a happy face so no one would know That your leaving left a mark.
This year is going to be different I’m gonna put last year behind Even though Christmas means remembering you And the three years when you were ‘mine’ | |
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Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:55 am | |
| ((Mai Kokoro in english)) My Heart
I opened my heart once; I knew it was the only way to be free from this damn cage; My eyes saw a tall boy with dark eyes; And my heart fell forward. But it remains defeated…
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| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:55 am | |
| I Swear
I swear that I won’t die. I swear that I won’t speak. I swear that I won’t lie. I swear that I won’t seek.
But this, I cannot swear. Something that I hide, my lonely forgotten teddy bear. I cannot swear that I won’t love. | |
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Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:57 am | |
| Love And Death Spark
Written on stone, Signed in blood. Strength and courage thrown, Are you drowning in the flood?
You are sinking slowly, Like quick-sand—all I see is your hand. Life’s blood flowing— No sign of dry land.
Pen in my hand, running out of ink. Soak into the paper. We’re both starting to sink— Will you do me a favor?
Before I am gone, tell me that you love me. I won’t feel all alone when I’m in the dark, Closing my eyes so I can’t see— Love and Death spark! | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:57 am | |
| Forest of Life
Dense is the forest of our lives Leaves fall exposing broken dreams Yet light filters through the branches Giving hope to a virgin day breaking
Sunlight falls and a spectrum spreads Butterflies prance on the flowers in bliss I preserve our scattered tender dreams In the depth of my hearts golden chest
Soft breezes carry sweet sultry vows Words on sugar lips simply no sound Melodious song transcends to the stars Winds take me swiftly into his arms
Evoking the untouched desires of mine I adore his beauty under twilight Gazing on stars, I kiss his tender lips Each time I kiss him my heart beat skips | |
| | | Ashellie Kaine Admin
Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:58 am | |
| A Drink, A Drink, A Poem
Walk through the empty hallways but there’s no one there Turn left, turn right these white walls are always bare Drink in the left, razor in the right, call it my depression elixir Think back to memories I need another drink Why’d I look at that picture?
Knowing you, you’ll like the face these halls of mine are blank My loneliness, my frowning face, have only myself to thank I’m sick of walking a pointless track, never getting to a stop Sit yourself down Wait for the pain That suicide bomb to drop
Tick tock tick tock the time on the clock just crawls by I can’t live in this place but I can’t bring myself to cry Sick of the pain I’ll cut this vein I promise it’ll be deep Kick back Relax There’s nothing to do but sleep | |
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Posts : 395 Join date : 2009-06-07 Age : 33 Location : Ohio
| Subject: Re: Ashellie's Book of Poetry Tue Jun 23, 2009 12:58 am | |
| Life is Dreaded from the Heart
As her mother screamed and cried, Her sick little child just sighed, Her mother said, “Do not go!” But her little child sighed “No…” She looked at her mother, a tear on her eye… The little child blew her last breath, And used it to say, “Goodbye…” | |
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