Christy's Poems

Darkness Darkness
Written May 18th, 2005
Darkness, Darkness
We're all falling
There is no light
Is the Devil calling?

Darkness, Darkness
My eternal abyss
There is no greater hate
Than when you love like this.

The devil is calling
Always while I'm falling
Losing grip of reality
And there is no more love for me.

Darkness, Darkness
He claims his love for me is true
But he's to blind to know
That I love him too.

Darkness, Darkness
A soul was not something to sell
Darkness, Darkness
Love was just a cost for me living in hell.

Sick Of You

Sick of the depression
That you've put me through,
Sick of the anxiety
That I've gone through,
Sick of all the names, laughs and comments,
Sick of all the fighting
That's left me with bruises,
Sick of everything you put me through,
But just let me say this:
I'm sick of you!

Cruel World

Why is life so undeniably cruel?
To be accepted is a constant duel
I'm sick of all this screaming and yelling,
All this fighting, tattling, and telling,
Can't anyone be true and say what's from their hearts?
Or will this cruel world, tear us apart?

I sing my song,
For the world to know my pain,
I can't understand,
Why you don't take the blame.

You told me you loved me.
I guess that was all a lie,
Love isn't something you should give freely,
For if I do I will surely die.

I can't take anymore heartbreak,
For me this is all too much.
So I sit with my razor,
Cutting away the pain.

I sang my song,
For the world to know,
How you truly are,
And now its my time to go.

This razor's made its mark,
Down my arms and legs,
They are my scars to show the world,
How I chose to kill my pain.

Confused Love
What do you do,
When your world turns upside down
All the pain comes back
Flooding a once forgotten realm
You've tried so hard to forget
Forget your roots and move on
In the process you've lost your way
Strayed from what you wanted to become
No more life in your eyes
Only the pain that you've caused
I know you never wanted it
Probably never dreamed of it being this way
But soon you will understand
The pain in my heart too
My face tells lies that only you can hear
For my mind is lost in your soul
Trapped in this prison of love
Sometimes I wish that I could hate you
Never forgive you for the things that you've done
Behind these eyes I cry for you
My love to hold me tight
No matter what they say
You are the one who calms my fire
While fanning it to keep me alive.