Ashellie's Book of Poetry

8 Letters, 3 Words, 1 Meaning

It means you will never be on your own
Whenever you need me I'll be there
You will never have to feel alone
I will do everything to show you I care

I will comfort you when times are rough
I'll be your eyes when you can't see
I will guide you when things tough
When you're tired up I will set you free

When you wake up, I won't have gone
When you cry, I will wipe away the tears
You can have my shoulder to lean on,
Whilst I listen with both ears

Words can't explain how I am feeling
But there is one phrase that will just about do...
8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning
I Love You!

If Only

If only things were different,
And my days with you weren't spent
If only I had made the right choice,
Then I would still hear your voice
If only I could go back in time,
Maybe you would still be mine
If only I didn't often think of you,
And the love that I once knew
If only I was granted one single day,
I'd give my love to you all the way
If only we hadn't parted long ago,
Our love might blossom and still grow

Would You

Would you kiss my lips if they were bruised, bloody and battered?
WOuld you still hold my hand if you knew they have sinned?
Would you still look me in the eyes if you knew they have cried?
Would you still tell me I was beautiful even if I was at my worst?
Would you walk away mad at me if I was mad at you?
Would you still tell people I was your girl even if I embarrassed you?
Would you cry if you saw me crying?
Would you still tell me you loved me even if I told you I loved someone else...
Would you?

Nothing Without You

Even though I am with him
I am nothing without you.
He hugs me, I think of you.
He kisses me, I think of you.

You are my soul mate, my one and only.
I am hopelessly in love with you.
I want you so much,
But I know I can't.

I hope some day we are together again,
And that time I won't ever let you go.
I will treasure you forever,
Because my love, I am nothing without you.

When I Think Of You

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

I Need You

If I had a picture of you in a frame
When pulled apart, I'm alone with no surrounding to keep me standing.
I quickly fall to the surface.

If I a clock and you the hands
You keep me running; you keep time passing.
But if there's no hands in the clock
time slows and then quickly stops.
Tick, Tock....Tick.

If I a flower and you the sun
Your grace shines upon me, nurtures me.
But if it shall ever become dark
My beauty will begin to fade.

Regardless of what I am,
I think I need you.
But am I your frame or
nothing but the background
in the picture?

End Of A Fight

It takes a lot, to be wrong
To admit mistakes, and failure
but if love, is around you
isn't it best to just tell you?

It's not my fault, sometimes
Then again, I'm out of line
I trust you darlin, but eventually
I need you here with me

I'm not clingy, or needy
but tonight, I cling and need you.
If we fight, I am helpless
You're everything to me.

So dance a dance with me, on Friday
Hold me close again on Sunday
let's forget about Monday
and focus on the next date

Little Princess..

Playing with the little butterfly
Sitting all alone on her bed
Nothing left but to cry
So she just laughs instead

One hour passes by so fast
And no one's coming back
She never knew that minute passed
She didn't know life could be black

The butterfly knows how to fly
She justs wishes she was a fey
And then she would easily die
So she could simply fly away

But her little crown is on the chair
She can't reach it, she's too small
Once again it isn't fair
She jumps off the bed and falls

But then her mommy comes along
And brings with her a small white dress
The castle is where the girl belongs
For she is the little princess...

Though what is white is not good
No more princess, all is dead
She'd ran away, if she understood
But the butterfly lays on the bed...

Do You See Her?

For years she was invincible
They walked right through her
Never seeing or saying a word
Not one act of love
But now she's dead
DO you See her now?

Many times she reached for you
But you all turned your head
Time and time she fell again from his fist
never once did you give a helping hand
SO her blood was just shed
Do you see her now?

Her body was fragile and bruised
She laid in her bed broken and blue
With bruises on her face and skin
He stood by her side not saying a word
That he was the one who put her here
Do you see now?

She now lays in a coffin not one breath left in her
Make up hides the bruises left on her face
And you her family stand mourning her fate
But not one lifted a finger to stop her pain
And make this man pay for her death
DO you see her now, DO YOU SEE HER NOW?

Blood

Blood burns like fuel in my veins,
Eyes leak painful heavy mounds.
Plead for help but no one comes,
Falling slowly as thy heart pounds.

Blood leaks upon the snowy ground,
Arm outstretched for the starry sky.
Speaking words in a silent rhythm,
Everything before tonight was a lie.

Blood baths me in its endless beauty,
Soaking my clothing and my face.
Gentle and precious has torn apart,
Hiding shards of me without a trace.

I’m Sorry

I'm sorry I didn't call
I'm sorry that I had to fall
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry for the floor tinted red
I'm sorry about your brand new dress
I'm sorry I made such a mess
I'm sorry everything went wrong
I'm sorry I just couldn't stay strong
I'm sorry that I lied to you
I'm sorry I just didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that I made you miss me so
I'm sorry I just had to go

Unintended

Walk along dreary, grey streets,
find your way through humanity.
Struggling through the masses,
scarring emotions and mentality.

[Darling, just a few more steps,
and we shall meet again..]

Superficial smiles blare past,
lies unraveling as you walk.
Tears mixing with ashen faces,
ignore the brutality and pain.

[Just a little bit longer,
you aren't far away..]

Run along familiar avenues,
rich with the light of dusk.
My eyes' flames burn bright,
guiding your way back to me.

[You're my unintended lover,
an unintended friend.]

This Is What I Am

I'm angry.
With the environment
My parents
But mostly just you.

I'm upset.
Because the
People around us
Just can't keep
To themselves.

I'm hurt.
I never thought
That we would
End up
This way.

I'm alone.
I can't stand
Sleeping
Next to you
Anymore.

I'm depressed.
I didn't plan
For our love
To stray so
Very far from us.

I don't care.
Or at least
It looks
Like I don't.

FarAway Thoughts

A boy's heart can change into a heart of a man
A girl's heart can change into a heart of a woman
a saying can turn into reality
a promise can turn into dust
i can love you from afar though you wont let me
i will keep breathing because i can see clearly
that my feelings i have, will always stay
we had alot of fun when we were kids i remember the way we used to play
you hit me on my head everytime you'd lose a game
then i would laugh and i would say what a shame
i like the way you were holding me few years back
a life without you, thats what i will lack
we've been apart for the longest time
me wanting you so bad, is it really a crime?
i reminisce the times we were walking and taking pictures that night
while walking we were listening to the same song over and over again
i took that picture of you while that clown was pointing at you
i took that picture of you while you were pretending to ride that little motorcycle
i took that picture of you while you were beside a frog
i took that picture of you while you were inside that small airplane
we were looking for our parents and ended up finding them eating in burger king
you stopped me from getting mad because i couldnt hear the cashier properly
you stopped my heart from getting beaten
you cleared my mind and told me dont listen to any judgment by others
you were the first one to tell me i had cute eyes
time sure flies by fast,
through these years, i was covered by darkness
it was you that gave me lightness
it was you who made me realize
that there is something i should be happy about
and that reason is you
if it wasnt for you, i wouldnt find my way back
the light that you've given me

I Love You

Her:
In the days I find your voice is gone
I miss in more ways than one
And in these moments I fall to my knees
And it's a sad day away from the sun

When I reach to touch your face
To find you are not there
Into the emptiness my heart does fall
And I can do nothing but stare

And I smile at the thought of you
And wait for your hand to gently caress mine
A warmth comes to me because I know
With you, everything will be fine

And in the darkened days
When the sun neglects to shine
I find it harder than anytime
To realize you're not mine

The touch of your hand
The taste of your skin
The whispered words
I can only imagine

And I reach out my hand
To find you are there
A smile comes to my face
But are you really there?

I open my eyes
To find the tears come
It was just a dream
And now I feel so numb

I turn to find a message from you
Saying that you love me too
And I wonder if it's true
Were you dreaming of me?

Him:
A million thoughts cloud my mind
While this thin blanket attempts its heat
In this wild cluster I sought out to find
How can I fall when there is no defeat

Slowly the room grows dark
And I fall to sleep
Where this fantasy leaves its mark
A feeling I wish to keep
Wind blowing past your soft face
And it's hard for me to breath
My heart is winning this race
But the words can't break my teeth
You make me stumble to a fall
And before the ground is felt
Just then you'll catch me after all
And in your loving arms ill melt
Into a pool we swim in dreams
where our love sings
Of joy it seems
The happiness this brings
Makes a smile in my sleep
But when I wake to this place
I again wish I could keep
My lips to your face

Maybe some things are hopeless
Like a suicide tree
That hangs rope less
Just for me
But I could never feel that way
Never in my life
What would my heart have to say
If I just ran from all the strife

It would tell me
Just to wait
Some day I'll see
That there is some kind of fate
We just have to believe....
Do you believe?

Her:
My dear, you know I have found?
That my words I could not bound
I let my heart flow free
Only between you and me.

And in the time of passing days
I have thought of many ways
To clear ahead and lift this haze
So it is into your eyes that I may gaze

Wrapped in your warmth I won't struggle free
For this time is for you and me
I want to lay here forever
This I know, is a difficult endeavor

Our love is a secret, not to be told
And in my hands, I will hold
This delicate light in my life
This time of you and I.

On my skin your fingers may fall
And we will be lost in it all
But we may find some fateful day
That it may not turn out this way

And I will shed tears for you
And I know you will for me too
I will catch them in my hand
And for this I will take a stand

You deserve no tears of sadness
Such pain from you is simply madness
I will make those tears leave your face
All the pain I wish to erase

Your tears I will kiss away
And I will stay for better days
When a captivating smile you will wear
And I can do nothing but stare

At the beauty emanating from your soul
And your happiness makes me whole
I'll never ever let you go
And I hope it's this you know

I love you my dearest *****
Your soft hugs is what I miss
All the smiles the time of bliss
And 'm still waiting for that fateful kiss

Him:
It'll be very soon
My sweet Ashley
We won't be the sun and moon
We'll be Clyde and Bonnie
We won't rob any place
We'll be everything we need
In a gentle sweet pace
Its the feeling that we heed
You're so beautiful to me
I wish to hold you tight
If only to see
What it is to be yours one night
Although I wish for many more
One day and One night
Is all that I'm asking for
In hope that we just might
Get so much more
In this surprise
Than we asked for
Maybe we won't need good-byes

I know this is wishful thinking
And I don't want to be the fool
But my thoughts are sinking
So deep into you
Before I lay to sleep
After I wake from dreams
Of you I wish to keep
By all means
You can use me
Just be gentle and sweet
You can abuse me
If you promise not to beat
What I'm trying to say
Is that I'm all yours
Maybe for a day
Maybe more
Just tell me the place
Give me a time
And you'll see my face
And well make a day sublime
Lets makes our dreams
Just be true for one day
We need it, it seems
Maybe in a way?
I love you
will you be mine for a day?
Tell me honest and true

Her:
We found our moments
We have learned some secrets
Have made much more
And I have no regrets

The taste of your lips
So soft on mine
Never wanting it to stop
For all of time

Your hands on my body
Baby you don't even know
Tingles down my spine
Such emotion to show

With you I can be me
And..You see?
It's not with everyone I can be
But it's just different with you and me

And now when I close my eyes
And think real hard
Your lips come to mine, and I can taste you
...I have let down my guard

You have won your way into my heart
In the beginning...
The very start....
I didn't mean for it to be this way

You were a friend,
A very dear friend
And now if you leave, I will cry
The tears of sorrow until I will die

Such loneliness if you depart
And as the song goes...
I'll follow you into the dark

Him:
My dearest
You’ve taken me by surprise
You take my mind from rest
When I find hope in your eyes
Like a the gentle touch
of love from your fingers
I long for it so much
'Cause the feeling still lingers

This time from you
Tears me apart
I wish I knew what to do
When we say good bye and depart

But never worry my dear
I’ll never leave you
Never will you face that fear
For you my heart is true
I know things complicate
This feeling we share
And at times it may frustrate
But we’ll pull through the hardest dare
Only and if only
We fight for our hearts
'Cause we’ve all been lonely
And struck by cupids darts
But have we ever
Felt a love like this
This heart filled endeavor
To achieve wonderful bliss

Someday We won’t hide
This feeling in us
Someday we’ll show it with pride
And never break our trust
Just you wait mahal ko
We’ll have it one day
Its us so I know
That we will find a way

Her:
I have half a mind to lose myself,
And just become all yours.
I’m not sure I can do that,
Open and close these doors.

I love you now,
And I loved you then.
The last few weeks,
This is how it’s been.

I dream of you in the night,
Such blissful thoughts of ease.
And I wake up with a fight,
Because I don’t want to leave.

Having me, with your arms around,
All I can hear is your whispering.
It’s the only sound,
And I have half a mind to lose myself.

I want to be yours,
And these days are tearing me apart.
I’m not sure, can we open these doors?
I shall go now, leave you in peace.

Wait for your return,
When I can hear your words.
Because this calm peace of mind,
It is long gone.

Tears...I fear them
Reach out my hand and whisper
...Where are you?
You have a heart to mend...

I’m falling...will you be there to catch me?

Him:
Sweet heart ill do more than catch you
Ill give you the wings to fly
Because ever since I met you
I wanted to give us a try
And these weeks of late
I’ve been seeing a preview
And it feels like absolute fate
For it to be only me and you
It could be the way our lips dance
Or your soft touch on my skin
The fact that we could give this a chance
Makes this more complicating than sin

Oh by odens beard
I love you so
And I cheered
When you didn’t let go
When your lips
Wouldn’t leave mine
And my hands at your hips
Made everything more than fine
Now I find myself lost
Lost in thoughts of you
Never caring of the cost
Just wondering how this could be true
Unbelievable is you
You’re beauty is breath taking
You’re eyes amazing and true
Look my hands are shaking
Its got to be you
You’re better than dreams
And its true
But "real" it seems
Is not what we have
But who knows what to do
frankly I have no clue
Because what’s a guy to do
With only hopes a dreams
But hope the dreams come true
So even though they’re winding streams
They'll always come together somehow

Who Lives in Your Dreams?

Who lives in your dream? coz I don't have space for me in mine
someone has taken place, and if you ok with then I am all fine
and if I knock to your heart... will you open the door..
Or will you check me and turn down from the window in first floor

Who lives in your eyes? Coz I have only one picture, that's you
and when I close them every time, it’s the feeling of closeness so true
but if sometime I found you going, I won’t be able stop them cry
and will keep each tear as your picture and won’t let them dry

Who makes you laugh? coz I only laugh when you around
smile that twinkles in my eyes puts me out of this ground
promise you'll be happy forever as every morning sun glows
and will stay bright and shiny as lovely as sun flowers grows

Who can put me in your shoes? coz my life is without you a mess
why be yourself, when its lots more fun to be someone else
and the love the care the feeling of togetherness, I have in store
I am so sure is zero against you have in your heart's core

Love that Keeps Her Going

It was his time to go
He had a job that
Forced him to leave

He had his papers
He was off to serve
In this drawn out war

She couldn’t bear
To hear the news
Didn’t know what to do

She held in her tears
And lived every minute
Like it was their last

He held her close
Hands stroking
Along her back

Moved her hair out
Of her face
To see her beautiful eyes

She knew just what
Was gonna come next
"If I don’t return"

Is how he always starts
"Know I'll always love you
From the bottom of my heart"

She tried to smile
Hiding her worst
And deepest fears

She stood there with him
Silently praying to god
As she whispered her goodbye

It's when the tears start to fall
One final kiss
Knowing it could be that last

She placed her hand
Over her heart
Where his dog tags hung

Knowing it was the
Closest thing she
Had to the real thing

She was scared to death
She couldn't help but
Imagine him lying there dead

Someone please tell her
Why did he have to go
Fight in this awful war

Every time he leaves
She only misses him
More and more

Her mind races
A mile a minute
Pushing her over the edge

She turns on the news
Watches and listens
So confused

People bombing, soldiers dying,
Children crying,
Women sobbing

All the things that
Scare her so
Til' she cant take it anymore

She prays for him
To come home safe
Trying to stay sane

To return and tell
Of the terrible war
That's making her life hell

Just In Case

I'm writing this now in case one day you might forget
The love burning in my heart since the first day together that we spent

And how it grew with each sunset and sunrise
Knowing forever then I'd be lost in sweet hazel eyes

You give me more than any other man can ever give
You helped open my eyes to truth and provided a loving place to live

A family, too, in a way, that I never thought could be
I know that with God's love, it is all I'll ever need

So how could I ever ask for anything more?
Pursue your dreams, my dear, and then my heart will surely soar

Even if we are never seen together under God's sovereign eyes
If you are truly happy, not one tear will I dare cry

I know that I can never forget the first gifts of your heart
Nor each new one that one day you might impart

So read this if you are ever in any doubt
Remember your friendship I can never live without

And I will sit quietly here and confidently smile
I trust the Lord even if you never wait at the end of the aisle

But I pray that you shall leave your father, joined to a wife
And we'd become one flesh till the end of our physical life.

The Perfect Touch

Beat in my heart as you stir my night
wake up my soul by your touches light
scream to my deafness , teach me
deeply how to listen, to blindly see

hold my cracked bones into your arms
heal me my love, by a look that charms
light my room by the sparkle of your eye
be the star that brighten this inner sky

oh hold me close under the jewels of the rain
with every drop, give me a kiss for my pain
for by every touch you'll heal & strength my soul..
Haven't I said before, you're the part that can
did, and forever will make me perfectly whole

I’m Useless Without You

Your voice sails smoothly through me
Taking time
Lounging in my heart

My hands are tools for unwrapping
Your secret fears
And taking them apart

Your heart is more than a rhythm
Producing sound
Conducting my minds flow

My heart is more than a rhythm
Keeping up
Making sure you know

That my hands are useless without
Your perfect voice
To sooth my worried mind

And my heart is useless without
Your beating heart
To keep my cold blood warm

Face the Music

Why is it that when a heart is broken,
The right words are always easiest to find.
When our chance has long come and gone,
To speak the truth that was on our mind.

Why do we make life altering mistakes,
All the while knowing the fate at hand?
Golden dreams of forever are in our grasp,
Only to slip through the cracks like sand.

Why do we force ourselves to say I’m sorry,
To give away a destiny we once controlled?
Risk losing a world we could never live without,
Giving up the only hand we ever wanted to hold.

Why is it that we hurt the ones we love the most,
Never realizing the pain they feel is our pain too?
Putting ourselves in a situation to reflect our past,
Speechless at best, with apologies long overdue.

Why when we are supposed to face the music,
Do we turn our backs with regret we’ll never admit?
Maybe because with time we learn to understand
We don’t always have to face the music, to hear it.

Veins of My Heart

As a puissant sensation fills my four chambers,
A palpable tension flows in the air.

A stream of appreciation builds a fountain of love
Pouring through my veins, replenishing all that remains.

The quintessence of love he deeply encrusts,
Holds a key that satisfies all my dreams.

His voice filled with great ardor
As he embraces the day, loving me all the way.

The veins of my heart pounds every time he starts
As the love he emits, embraces me never to quit.

Our Story

You’ve been always the one who,
Misread what’s between the lines,
Glad your eyes have fell onto…
Implications that show in signs

Remember all the sweet times?
Look into my eyes and kiss me,
Making poems with cute rhymes
Always laughing and carefree…

At one point I was thankful for,
Every thing that has happened—
You learned to never ignore…
Me as a lover, who God has sent

Hold me close, I am your dream
Simple and claim, with a flavor—
‘You’ and ‘I’ – such a crazy team,
A new beginning we’re waiting for

we make mistakes, we’re flawed,
Tears and heartbreak chose to…
Tear us apart and switch the mode,
For the love story of me and you.

Lovers Knot

Looping with smiles and giggles all night
Our hand and legs entwined again
Visible emotions of clear devotion
Elevating sensation forming vibration
Rotating and fumbling in lovers knot
Seductively thinking we’ve got a lot

Kindly reaching kissing her freely
Never ending for we aren’t pretending
Over the top we kiss till we drop
Together we lay in lovers knot

Lying to Forget

This lie’s become a part of me
For months, I’ve played this game
Acting like it doesn’t hurt
Each time I hear his name

Ignoring what’s inside of me
Pretending I’ve moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment…
I couldn’t catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time…
I just can’t let him go